Getting What You Want - Get It, Got It, Great ... - GIGIG

Wow, getting what you have longed for for so long should be an amazing feeling right!  So why am I feeling the way I am just now.  I am delighted that I am going to launch my workshop, coaching programme.  Cannot believe and just feel so lucky, so then how come I feel well like this.  Not sure what like this actually means or is but it feels unexpected, a little low, flat, the energy and excitement has certainly been there and will be there but I am trying to be with my feelings which I can eat or drink away but don't want to do that. 

It seems strange now that it has taken me so long to allow myself to do this.  I am a coach and could have done this a long time ago, cant you just hear those little critics but I am here now and I am doing it.  Sometimes I get sad thinking about what we do to ourselves over our lives, just because we don't feel too great about who we are inside and then we continually seek approval from others and you know the rest you will never please all of the people all of the time. 

Amazing that we don't give ourselves permission to listen to ourselves.  Have to say I have been developing these listening skills for some time now and they are much better then they were but sometimes I choose not to listen because then I may need to face up to the fact that I am an ok dude for just being who I am.  Not for any great deeds or anything just because it is supposed to be this way.  So what am I getting???

Get It
I guess I am getting that even though your dreams are being realised there is a balance of emotions, feelings, fears, excitement.  Perhaps with the gains there are some losses but how wonderful to be moving forward and be true to the self despite the critics in the head. 

Got It
I think my Got It is just honoring that I have a mixture of feelings from realising my dreams of Don't Make Dreams Weight, living life from the inside out and its ok to have them.  My choices are to listen to myself, have compassion, know that even though I may have some 'flatness' it does not mean that I am not totally grateful and so excited.  I could eat my through, drink my way through or I could just breathe, journal, cozy up in my wonderful warm bed and sleep on it. 

Great ...
That is what I am going to do, my Get To list has one item on it, just cozy up in my lovely warm bed and sleep and be grateful, ok 2 things. How lucky am I?

My Ta Da List

• wahoo writing this and not knowing what was to come
• honoring how I am feeling and attempting to suspend judgement
• not trying to think of anything else to add -  haha

What worked

• being honest and not trying to analyse it too much
• making time to be here

I am so grateful for the people I come across, friends, family, clients, life.  Thank you, thank you.