Get it
I was working through a self coaching work book by Janet Whitehead - her website is called Mud and Musings, inspiring and fun, worth checking it out. It was about exploring your gifts as a child and explore where you are using them now and how could you use them.
My goodness I was not prepared for what occurred. As for most of us I do not have many childhood memories. I was a little resistant to doing this to be honest, which actually indicated that I needed to do it even more. Don't you just hate that!! I was able to vaguely recall that sometime before I was 5 (and why 5 because I remember the street we lived in) we put on a street play and sold old toys to raise money to buy new ones. I loved singing, musicals. I was in a couple of plays and embarrassing as this is I use to narrate my brother and I doing the dishes.
As an adult I wanted to train others or present. On occasions I wanted to do drama, learn to sing, play the guitar and never followed any of this through. I remember hearing messages about who did I think I was to stand up in front of others and do stuff, teach them etc. I always wondered why I had this thing inside of me that I wanted to teach, to do groups, workshops, present etc. It is very big headed you know!!!
Anyway in my coach practice I love working on a one to one basis but I am really drawn to work with groups also, do presentations, workshops, retreats etc and could not understand what this draw was but now I do. So ..
Got it
Now I get it so what. How can I use this information well, I get that I finally understand that I have had this gift, knowledge before I even went school perhaps. That it is part of who I am meant to be and that is so ok and must be exposed. It would be a shame if I did not allow my gifts (don't know how much they are gifts yet) but I am naturally drawn in this direction, so I need to satisfy who I am. How absolutely wonderful and scary at the same. Jeez people are going to see the real me that is emerging but it feels so right.
Now a strategy, what do I 'Get To' do that will support my next step. Well, I can acknowledge this and have to say I need to journal and sit with the part of me who is sad because I denied this my whole life (next year I am 50) and thought I was a bad person because I wanted to support, teach, educate others, do presentations and workshops, etc and yet is ecstatic that I am listening to my intuition.
Next I can continue to develop my workshop programme for September and a workshop for November. I also want to do a retreat. Now Liz, these are way big steps albeit exciting.
Great - what next
- Small step - I Get To take a note of my ideas and put them on my board
- I get to continue to work with my workshop for Sept
- Calendar to start my November workshop in August/Sept
- Be kind and compassionate to myself - what an insight
- Finally allowing myself to be heard
- Allowing my uncomfortable feelings
- Doing this blog
I am so grateful that I am in the space to face this.
Oh how will I celebrate. Open a 200 ml bottle of sparkling Lindaur Fraise wine. :-)
Now your turn - if you are up to it!
Get it - what did you love doing when you were a child? List, mind map, collage, doodle, write, paint, day dream etc. Where are you doing it now? If you are not doing stuff you enjoy now, can you choose one small thing?
Got it - now you know some things you like to do. What is one thing that you can choose? Just one thing? List what you need to do to create the time, space, resources to do it. Just a quick list.
Great - now what, just choose one item from the list. You Get To Do - what ....? Just one small step, even if it is for 5 mins, or day dreaming, just do it.
Ta Da List - write one thing on your Ta Da List, just one thing that you are glad that you did, more if you feel like it.
What worked?
What is one thing that you are grateful for?
How will you celebrate?
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